Miss Him. Happy Birthday. 5/3/2013

For the first time I feel the emptiness today. Pass 15th years ago, I will make sure that I'm the first one to wish you and now let me always do the same.

When I'm having my semester break during my first n second year i always ask you "What happen to me if u gone?" "can i accept it?" "am I that strong?" but you always said that no matter what i have to take care all of them, study well and please take a good care of Mak. Abah, i will grant your wish as far as I can.

However, I'm still sad that i can't fulfill our promise that I will take care of you during my semester break since you pass away a month before it. 

If you can hear me, I just wanna to shout "HAPPY BIRTHDAY and I MISS YOU." Al-fatihah. Semoga rohnya ditempatkan dalam kalangan orang yang beriman.

Al Quran dan Terjemahan

Surah:

Ayat:

Surah 1 Al-Fatihah ( 7 ayat ) الفاتحة
1	Dengan menyebut nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang.	بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ
2	Segala puji bagi Allah, Tuhan semesta alam.	الْحَمْدُ للّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ
3	Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang.	الرَّحْمـنِ الرَّحِيمِ
4	Yang menguasai di Hari Pembalasan	مَالِكِ يَوْمِ الدِّينِ
5	Hanya Engkaulah yang kami sembah, dan hanya kepada Engkaulah kami meminta pertolongan.	إِيَّاكَ نَعْبُدُ وإِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِينُ
6	Tunjukilah kami jalan yang lurus,	اهدِنَــــا الصِّرَاطَ المُستَقِيمَ
7	(yaitu) Jalan orang-orang yang telah Engkau beri ni'mat kepada mereka; bukan (jalan) mereka yang dimurkai dan bukan (pula jalan) mereka yang sesat.	صِرَاطَ الَّذِينَ أَنعَمتَ عَلَيهِمْ غَيرِ المَغضُوبِ عَلَيهِمْ وَلاَ الضَّالِّينَ

                                          

Touched when listen to this lyrics because it really close to me n my abah:~

Bye Bye"

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]

result sem 5. :'(

lately nie malas nak update blog. still a great holiday since spending time with my mak and visit the grave every Friday sometimes twice a week.  not to forget spending my time with my lil bro and my best friend (kena kidnap ke Rain Town. :D)

Today, the result of my 5 sem is out. Syukur the result is good even though during my final exam i'm a little bit loss due to my grandfather death a few days b4 the exam. My wawa just call me after she heard about the result is out and we had a sad moment because my grandfather not with me to celebrate it this time.

 " Abah, Ky tau abah selalu risaukan ky. Everytime result nak keluar mesti ky akan mintak abah tolong doakan sekali. This time ky cuma pesan kat wawa n u jim utk doakan ky. Ky x sanggup nak bg tau mak n umi to do the same thing to me sebab kalo abah ada abah akn suruh diaorg utk doakan ky. Abah x usah risaukan ky ye. insyaallah Ky akan berjaya satu hari nanti and ky akan tunaikan apa yang abah pesan kat KY. "

Al- Fatihah. 

JODOH?

Missing

Honey,
love you is the way I can stop
and think of you
smile at the ground
and giggle a bit
and start to think
of how much you mean to me
and wonder
what I’ll do without you beside me.


True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.


My love for you can turn a mountain to waters
My love for you has no appropriate description, it hasn’t any numerical equivalence.


Situation: Miss Him. 




My LOVE?

My Mak N Umi

pagi2 nie dgr lagu nie membuat hati ku berasa sayu...

MAK n UMI, I Miss Both of You. ;(
not to forget..

my ABAH..

Thanks..
p/s: hope plan pagi nie nk g mkn nasi lemak kg darat dapat di capai! bismillah.

pavlova recipe.. yummy~~

teringin nak makan pavlova..x pe sabar nabilah.. tinggal 10 hari je kau tersadai kat UUM nie.. lpas balik rmh boleh la kita buat pavlova tu.. btw, tgk gambar pavlova je dh buatkan ku terliur.. yummy~~~


bagi yang nak tau mcm mne nak buat pavlova kat sini aq ada tinggal kan resipi dia..

Resepi Pavlova

Bahan-bahan

4 biji putih telur
1 cawan gula castor
1/2 sudu teh esen vanilla
1 sudu teh cuka masakan
1/2 sudu besar tepung jagung

Topping/hiasan 
1 cawan (240 ml ) whipping cream
1 1/2 sudu besar gula halus
1/2 sudu teh esen vanilla

Cara membuat

#Pukul putih telur dengan perlahan.
#Masukkan gula satu sudu demi satu sudu sambil putar dengan laju sehingga putih berkilat.
#Masukkan esen vanilla dan gaul.
#Masukkan tepung jagung dan cuka beserta gaul.

#Panaskan oven pada suhu 150 darjah celcius.
#Masukkan adunan ke dalam oven.
#Setelah 15 minit turunkan suhu kepada 140 darjah celcius.
#Bakar selama satu jam.
#Setelah siap dibakar, buka pintu oven sedikit dan tunggu sehingga meringue betul-betul sejuk sebelum dihias dengan menggunakan whipped cream dan buah-buahan masam seperti strawberi, kiwi, blueberi.

*inilah hasil pavlova ku yg di cilok dari google images*

siapakah pemilik tulang rusuk kiriku~

Ketika aku remaja
Sesaat selepas mendengar kisah Adam dan Hawa
Terbit satu pertanyaan dalam diri ku
Aku ini tulang rusuk kiri siapa?

Bagaimana rupanya,
Tinggi atau rendah,
Kurus atau gempal,
Cerah atau gelap,
Tampan atau jelek.

Puas aku membayangkan,
Impikan jejaka rupawan,
Persis seorang pahlawan.

Ketika aku menganjak dewasa
Dikala sedang menuntut di menara
Timbul semula persoalan itu,
Aku ini tulang rusuk kiri siapa?

Bagaimana hartanya,
Motor atau kereta,
3310 atau Iphone,
Selipar atau Adidas,
Miskin atau kaya,
Puas aku mencari
Impikan lelaki hartawan
Persis seorang jutawan.

Ketika aku akhirnya dewasa
Dikala sedang berusaha berkerja
Bertanyaku sekian kali,
Aku ini tulang rusuk kiri siapa?

Bagaimana akhlaknya,
Malas atau rajin,
Baran atau sabar,
Dungu atau pintar,
Jahat atau baik,
Puas aku berdoa
Impikan lelaki budiman,
Persis seorang beriman.

Ku tanya lagi pada diri,
Aku ingin jadi tulang rusuk kiri siapa,

Pentingkah rupa?
Cukuplah yang sedap di mata,
Pentingkah harta?
Cukuplah yang mampu menyara,
Pentingkah iman?
Terdiam aku seketika.

Kerana diriku melihat diri sendri,
bagai tak layak untuk disunting oleh pencinta Ilahi,
Diriku lemah sekali,
Penuh dosa dan layak dicaci,
Bagaimana kalu pemilik tulang rusuk ini ketahui,
Bertapa hinanya si rusuk kiri
Pasti dia menyesal sekali

Lalu ku tanamkan azam,
Tuhan masih memberiku peluang
Akan ku berusaha membaiki diri,
Bagi melayakkan diri pada yang terbaik.
Semoga pemilik tulang rusuk kiri,
Akan bahagia bersamaku di dunia dan di akhirat nanti.




kopi dan pasta dari pen patah..

notes for me. ;)

Tak payah susah hati dan bimbang apa tanggapan orang terhadap kita...
 manusia kan suka mengata. Orang yang dah mati pun masih dikata. Macam mana nak minta maaf pada si mati? 
*Paling penting... apa tanggapan Allah terhadap kita...
di akhirat nanti, boleh tuntut pahala drpd si mulut jahat untuk menampung kekurangan pada hari penuh huru-hara...

dipetik daripada Facebook Fedtri Yahya (klik sini)

Happy 72nd Birthday Abah.

You always nagging at me,
you always telling me that everybody in the house have the same attitude,
you always said that "Don't eat the medicine just look at it and you'll be okay"
you always said that " Read more, improve your knowledge."
you always made me angry by teasing me every time you saw me.

But I want to let you know that
You always on the top of my heart,
For me you are my teacher that teach me how to look at the world in the different side, how to handle the car, how to be a strong girl, why the knowledge is important,  and most importantly how i must do if i want to be a better person in the "dunia and akhirat".

I hope one fine day, i will find a person just like you. a person who truly love me as the way you did to mak and all of your children and grandchildren especially me.

 Happy 82nd Birthday, ABAH!
I hope all of your wish will come true, have a good health, and may Allah S.W.T. bless you. ILY! ;-)

16/1/2012

my final day in semester 3 2011/2012 had come!
 First thing i had done on my last day was settled my summon at the Unit Keselamatan.
to settle it i had to go to the bank. However, the bank was closed due to public holiday
because of Sultan Kedah's Birthday.
then we go to the Jabatan Bendahari, and i had being charge extra RM20. (OMG!)
I had to pay it bacause i'm goin home tomorrow morning.

then, i has an exam at 2.30 p.m.
hope i can do the exam well.

then i will final packing for my bag.
I want to go home.
dear home,

please wait for me. :)

Mariah Carey obsessed?

recently, i love to play and watch all of her song.

i didn't know why.

but sometimes her song give me some spirit, hopes and inspiration.

her song always be in my head

*maybe it because i play the song in my car, in my mp3, and in my laptop =.='*

it's hard to say bye bye because i still believe that we belong together. 

without you my emotions is upside down. this had made the angels cry. 

i had walk through the rain just to find you. i pray that all I want for Christmas is you. 

to show how much i love you, i would like to give my all for you.

i hope when you believe that i stay in love you, you can come to me in one sweet day. 

I'll be there waiting for you because you always be my baby.

dear my hero, 

please don't obsess and fantasy that you can touch my body and try to shake it of!

 i want to know what love is and i hope that our love will be endless love.

she is

MARIAH CAREY!

my handbag?

*beg kau nie besar sangat la!*

*beq kau nie berat, siot! kau bawak batu ek?*

many ask me these ^ question..

now i will reveal what is in my bag or handbag (sometimes ^_* )

1. Baby Johnson Lotion. (small size)

* to prevent my skin from dry*

2. Johnson Compact Powder

* to maintain my skin from dry and oily.*

3. Lip Ice

*love it because it like balm to my lips and the color is according to your blood Sometimes my lip pink, purple and almost red. :) *

4. Contact Lens and its cleaning solution ( in small bottle)

* easy for me to wear it every time i need it like sport*

* i want this!*

5. My spectacles and its cover

* to prevent my spectacles from broken when i didn't wear its.*

6. Hand Sanitizes

* sometimes certain toilet didn't have tissue and you can use it in emergency situation. 

it also prevent me from bacteria ( pronounce it like the elephant in the TARZAN cartoon)

7. Pocket Tissue (dry tissue)

* to wipe all the dirt, sweat, and many more*

8. Pocket Tissue (wet tissue)

* to wipe dirt*

9. Sunglasses

* to prevent my eyes from the sun*

10. make up bag

* all my make up stuff  like mascara, eyeliner, eye shadows, blusher, foundation and many more*

11. Small umbrella

* to protect me from the hot and rain.*

 12. small mirror

* helps me to maintain my hijab*

13. coin purse

* separate the coins.*

14. my purse

* containing my money, ATM card, id card, driving licensed, calendar and many more*

15. handphone

* be with me 24/7*

16. my diary or organizer

*as a back up. need it when my hp lack of battery*

17. my Mp3 player
* listen all the song*

this is all i have in my hand bag!